one of those days

ever had a day when you weren't really sure what was going on?

you float through it in a daze, and when you suddenly come to, it seems like every seemingly innocent thing you do just transmutates to a fuck up. you have no idea where you went wrong, and nobody seems to want to tell you.

you suddenly start feeling that everything solid and stable in your life has started crumbling down around you. strong walls reveal cracks upon closer inspection, and once familar surroundings suddenly feel like they belong to a different life. priorities change, with badly planned time distribution being a major problem. an embrace, once warm, now cooled somewhat. conversation, strained. comfort, forced.

then you find out that she feels has chosen to feel second best in your priorities, and you are clueless as to why. then you find yourself turning to the powers that be, imploring for a return to happier days.

where did things start backsliding? how did they change? what did i do? what can i do?

all questions to ponder in solitude, on a day such as this.