fresh air of freedom

outside vivo

now don't get me wrong. i don't hate my job. i get frustrated much of the time cause i don't get to shoot much anymore, but i do think i am in a position to make a difference, small though that difference might be (baby steps remember!)

but after three weeks of working with only three off days, it's nice to have a four day stretch of off days to clear. and sometimes, just getting out with someone you love (especially when it's still light out) makes it all better. so what if i forgot to bring my handy dandy little camera with me, sometimes, a camera phone is all you really need.

space filler: smoke gets in your eyes

when the going gets tough, the tough get smoking

and so this is where half the newsroom disappears to when things start getting gnarly. for about five minutes, all is well in the world with good company to share mutual gripes and passionate discourses about how things at work have deteriorated.

even non-smokers venture out, despite the risk of second hand smoke inhalation, for a moment or two of respite amongst people with nothing more in common than their disgruntlement.

and when the cigarette is smoked to the butt, it's back to the grindstone for some, and for others like myself, back to the task of trying to make things work as they should, not as they are.

and things are slowly getting better.

can't always be a hero

my partner in crime

i'm beginning to find that out the hard way.

even with someone who cares about you looking over your shoulder and surprising you with little bursts of happiness and sunshine (spuder-man was a kickass pick me up), it's easy to let other things get you down.

juggling work, finances, increasing burdens and moments of frustration, are a lot easier when you have that patient ear, and someone who loves you to keep you standing.

this is for her.

me, now

exhausted

adjective
drained of energy or effectiveness; extremely tired; completely exhausted; "the day's shopping left her exhausted"; "he went to bed dog-tired"; "was fagged and sweaty"; "the trembling of his played out limbs"; "felt completely washed-out"; "only worn-out horses and cattle"; "you look worn out"

i so need to start writing about happier things